I recall the year I did the PCP. About five months prior I had gone pescatarian. This combined with the Patrick's direction and exercises for the PCP had me feeling better than I ever had, and it was also easier to accept dietary change as I had just made a radical one. I also recall the day I gave up pescatarianism. I gave it up because I felt that it had become a bit of a game to me, to see how long I could go. What I failed to realize at the time was that I shouldn't have seen it as temporary to begin with. I should have seen it as a permanent change in my lifestyle.
I am still struggling to accept exercise, a healthy diet, wellness as a permanent lifestyle change. It's so ingrained in us to see seasons such as winter-weight season and "bikini season". I'm also used to tackling life in seasons, especially professionally. I love change.
Change. Environment is crucial to change.
When I was on the PCP, I stood out amongst my peers like a pimple on an otherwise blemish-free face: "Why are you doing this?" "So you're not going to eat tasty food any more?" "I just don't get it." I was never ridiculed, but I was certainly "different". At the time it felt really good to be that disestablishmentarian odd-man-out, that salmon swimming upstream. Now I just want to physically, emotionally, spiritually feel the way I did. The KFB is certainly helping me get there all over again, but my environment is still disheartening.
I do have more local support this time than last. Two of my best friends, whom I actually lived with at the time of the PCP, have completely turned around their eating habits for the better. We talk shop about health, diet, nutrition, and recipes from time to time. It certainly helps to have that mutual understanding and appreciation of nutrition with others, and I look forward to moving to a bigger city where healthy eating is more "cultural" and healthy food is more easily accessible.
Thanks also to you, my teammates and readers, for the encouragement, feedback, and support. It's time for me to stop bitching and to start problem solving.